"Rage at the Machine" (everyone calls him "Rage" for short) sent us this email after being a member of GYE for two months.
I was feeling down, thinking I'm fooling myself for thinking that I can be a clean and holy person... I aint holy... thinking it's gonna come a-crashin down soon... I went to get a bagel and I saw the cover of the New York Post and had a change of heart. It said:
I'll tell you, I am starting to see G-d's hand more clearly... I'm almost expecting the hand one time to just rear back and smack me a good one on the backside of my head... I sure earned it...
Tomorrow is 60 days... I really can't believe I'm 2 months clean... Do you understand that I have never been more than 2 or 3 days clean... ever... since I hit puberty?