I was lying in bed last night, literally weeping, thinking about my father who passed away a little while ago. I began to think maybe I should push off my struggle for a less emotionally trying period. I began to think about slipping. I then opened up yesterday's chizuk emails and read just the title "Father is cheering you on" (#778). I began to cry even more. I then saw the second e-mail on Shemiras Ainayim (#415) which talked about about a Shiva call.
I felt this was a open message to me from Hashem to keep on trucking.