I just wanted to take a minute before Rosh Hashana to express the gratitude I have for the GYE network.
I don't think it necessary to go into all the ways the GYE network and especially Moreno Guard has helped me, you guys know how much it has helped all of you, first hand.
I do want to say that I have put my money where my mouth is and have made donations to the GYE network in the past, and again after yesterday's appeal.
I may not be a wealthy person, but I feel that it was my obligation to give back just a little bit of what has been given so freely to me.
Wishing you all a kasiva v'chasima tova and a gut g'benched yur!!!!
"U'kisov l'chaim tovim - Write us for a good life" - Last year Hashem answered my prayers!!
Every Yomim Noraim I would ask Hashem for life and the good things that come with it. And of course I told Hashem and myself how bad I feel, and how this year I will be clean.
This was not working so well for me, and after doing it for so many years I was getting sick of it.
Last year I prayed differently. I was sick of my yo-yo life. Up - down, up - down, up - down. Day after day, week after week, and year after year. And before long, decade after decade. I knew that no matter how hard I davened, no matter how much I cried, no matter how honestly I felt that I would not go back, it would not last, like every year before.
So I cried and cried some more. 'U'kisov l'chaim' - I was not suicidal, but thought about my request for life. True, on these days my life for the year was being sealed, but was I actually worried that I may die? Not really. I've been sinning pretty badly my entire life and yet I'm still granted life each year. Ok, so I won't beg for life this year. It's not like I'm doing such a great job utilizing it.
'lechayim Tovim' - Good Life?! What's this?! hmmm... to be written down for a good life this year. Well, there was only one thing I could think of that would make this year a good year. And it wasn't winning the Lotto. It was to break free of my life-long addiction, to put an end to this yearly predictable ritual during the high holy days.
So I begged and I begged.
Hashem, I don't need life, what for? I am screwing it up anyways. You want to keep me around another year, fine, but on one condition, You give me a good year. Hashem, I am sick and tired of these bad years. I can't live through them anymore. I can't. Hashem, I want; no... I need a good life. I need one. Living with this addiction is not life! Please, please, please, I am begging You, write me down for a good life!!!!
Ten months later. Months of struggling. Months of ups and downs (with a lot of downs). Hashem answered my prayers. I certainly forgot what I asked for, but Hashem did not. He answered me. He sent to me His loyal servant Reb' Guard along with his holy army on GYE.
Thank you Hashem!!!! Thank you for the gift of life!!!! Thank you for making it a Good life!!!!! Thank you for 60 clean days!!!!! Thank you!!!!
"U'kisov l'chaim tovim, KOL BNEI BRIOSECHA". Hashem, last year I prayed for a good year, and You answered. This year please answer others like you answered me. For all of your fighters of your bris, please write them for a good year.
HEILIGEH YIDDEN,
THIS WEBSITE AND FORUM ARE THE "SANAYGAR" THAT REB LEVI YITZCHOK BEN SARAH ZUSHA, THE HEILIGER BARDICHEVER, WILL USE TO SHOW HK"BH HOW WONDERFUL HIS KINDERLACH ARE.
I HAVE 2 THINGS TO SAY:
ONE IS THAT ON ROSH HASHANAH I WILL BE 6 MONTHS CLEAN!!
BARDICHIVER NIGGUN PLEASE (Click here to download)
SECOND, WITHOUT REVEALING MY ANON. (I NEVER SAID THIS ON THE FORUM BEFORE)... I CALL MY SELF "bardichev" BECAUSE I AM AN "EINIKEL" OF THE HEILIGER BARDICHEVER.
IN THE PAST, I ALWAYS THOUGHT TO MYSELF, "WHAT WOULD I DO IF I AM EVER ZOCHE TO MEET MY ELTER ELTER .... ZAIDEH?
NOW I KNOW.
I WILL SHOW HIM THIS FORUM.
I blew Shofar this year for the local nursing homes. In recent years I took myself out of this task as a "mumar ledavar echad". But thanks to GYE, I'm back. So I and a bunch of older folks in NYC thank you Guard, for that too...