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To me, "getting out of His way" is something we slowly begin to do in recovery. Using schmutz is our way of staying in control. Arranging to get exactly what we want when we want it, avoiding pain whenever we wish, and manipulating the environment to make it exciting when we are bored! Yippee. We essentially replace G-d. We serve Lust, because it is pretty reliable. Especially the bodily part of it. Y'know, put my "quarter" in, and voila! I can make it happen. Oy vei, gevalt. Eventually it becomes a daily, full-time preoccupation. A hidden life of private moments with complete devotion, even with sacrifice, expense and pain. Y'know.... it sounds just like our yiddishkeit is supposed to be: "hatzneyah leches im Hashem Elokecha", korban tamid, mitzvos t'midios, mesiras nefesh, etc. Uh oh. Recovery turns this around and we sail in the other direction, for real, not just on the outside... no more hypocrisy. (Failure and imperfection, yes... but not hypocrisy). |