As lust addicts, we often feel torn into two. On the one hand our neshama craves kedusha, while our yetzer hara keeps dragging us to the 'other side'. It reminds me of what Rivka imeinu must have felt while carrying Eisav and Yaakov. While obviously we are not carrying "two nations" within us, we are carrying the representatives of two nations; the yetzer tov of Am Yisrael, and the Yetzer hara of Eisav. Eisav is Edom, and nowadays, Edom is considered Western culture. And what a powerful galusEdom's is! 2000 years he has ruled us, and now, right before the final geulah, he is fighting with his last, desperate strength, knowing his time is almost over. His last, most powerful weapon, is lust and all it entails. And we are falling and failing! 99% of this world happily turn themselves over as slaves to this tricky, disguised enemy.
You, and I, and and those on Guardyoureyes are part of 1%!!!! Sure we may feel we are losing sometimes, but we haven't surrendered! We haven't handed our free will over to the Yetzer Hara on a silver platter and said "Go ahead, enslave me, the fight simply isn't worth me effort".
Our nisayon is not easy, that's for sure. But please, for your sake, and the sake of this galus, DON'T GIVE IN! Get therapy, join an SA group if you need to, post on the forum - AND DAVEN DAVEN DAVEN! Beg Hashem to remove this unfair fight and grant you inner peace and simchas hachaim so that we don't need the lust anymore.