Overall, the battle is going pretty well. I just recorded day 47!!! However, the other day I faced the most difficult test yet: I was sitting at a friend's computer, when I clicked on the wrong link which accidentally brought me into the world of tumah. I literally jumped back when I first noticed my findings and just sat there in disbelief. The urge of 40+ days and the excitement from the surprising discovery put me in a deep dilemma. I put my head down by his computer as my mind raced back and forth. I was about to give in to the Yetzer Hara, when I did something which I read from the above email, "Surrender". I started to talk to HKB"H. I have always thought the techniques wouldn't work for me, since in the heat of the moment I truly believed I would be too weak to use them. But somehow I began and said,"Hashem, here I am at 40+ days. I'm trying really hard and everyday it's a battle. I'll be honest; I want to give in sooooooo badly. I want to throw it away for the few moments of ha'naah; but I know 20 minutes from now I'll be kicking myself. Please let me get past this. I cant do it without You." And B"H, completely through siyata dishmaya, somehow I found the strength to get up and press the power button and continue on my way.
Thanks for the simple yet most effective eitzah!