It's been hard recently. My wife and I have been "off" for about six weeks due to a change in medication, and it's been hard. I stumbled with computer stuff once or twice but I picked myself up and started again. I find it's about keeping to my own rules. If I am meikel, than - boy, oh boy - is it a kulah sh'osi lidei Chumrah!
Anyway, today after Mincha, as I walked back to the office, I was tired and stressed. I knew I was gonna fall. I just knew it. So I lifted my eyes to Hashem and tried to see the world as He sees it. I tried to experience my Yiddishkeit more than just live through it.
Maybe it was that, maybe coincidence, but I have been so busy all afternoon, I have had less than a minute to myself. I am stealing these few seconds to write this as I rush to another thing.
My day is never like this.
I don't know if it's Hashgocha or not (please don't write in trying to convince me it is - it's a Sugya :-) ) but I sure am grateful to Hashem!!!