Someone once wrote on the forum:
I have been in that dark pit.
If you listen I will help you out of there.
You have to remember.
Remember your youth, your younger days, where life was happy and pure.
Believe , that is how life is meant to be.
The pit is not real (even though it seem momentarily real and painful)
Make a resolution, to move forward to POSITIVITY, to purity of mind and soul, to reality, and out of distortion of reality.
ONE step at a time.
To where there is truth
To where there is purity
To where there is happiness
G-d, the G-d of Israel, is the source of all these things.
How do we connect to the source of Goodness, purity , happiness, reality, truth, inner peace, and self control?
How do we rectify a distorted mind?
Learn a word of Torah today.
Tomorrow, another one, and so on ....
Turn to the mighty purifying waters of Torah, step by step, and HaSh-m , will lead you out of the quagmire.
Trust in Him.
Do His mitzvot , without reason, simply , because He, Baruch Hu , commands us .
This is a starting point.
Experience how, you will be transformed.
If the urge returns, turn to HaSh-m. Know that He is the Source of True life and Goodness, even in this world.
All other pleasure are fleeting and pale , next to the pleasure of connecting to your Maker, of connecting to True life.
Be faithful to HaSh-m, and then you will be faithful to everyone else.
Be strong.
A friend, a Jewish brother.