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You protected me from conflict And soothed my shattered self, You were my friend when I was lonely, And when boredom came to rest. You were my friend when lovers refused me, You always pleased me, At first I blamed you on pure curiosity, then you got the better of me. I ...

"You should love the Lord Your God," we are told in the second paragraph of Shema. But there is an obvious problem with this passage: how can love be commanded? Imagine a young couple on their first date, with all their anxious smiles and nervous toe-tapping. Just before ...

Someone wrote on the forum: Since my last fall, I can't seem to get back up. I keep falling lower and lower, again and again. I can't stop myself. "Shnook" replies: First of all, get out of the house. Go sit somewhere where it's nice in the outdoors, maybe on a park benc...

If Hashem has had enough of me, He would take me out of this world. The fact that I am still here means that I still can do a Mitzvah; that there is something good I can do; really good.

"FrumFiend" writes on our forum for the first time: I am a respected marbitz torah and mashpiah ruchani. I fell into tumah very young age (a guy showed me something). I spent years spending every moment lusting after and dreaming about how to access such material. In Beis...

For me, it wasn't about getting caught... I still believe that I can likely carry on forever and never get caught... I probably will never lose my job or family because of it... So why am I doing all that I can to stop, even joining these embarrassing SA meetings? I guess...

Guys, did you know Shavuos is right around the corner? I feel so unprepared - Hashem has been sending me a gazillion messages that I should get back into a regular learning schedule. We want FREEDOM from lust, right? Well, as the writing on the Luchos teaches us ("charus ...

"NoWhereToTurn" posted this shocking post on our forum recently: Sholom Aleichem warriors, I am a regular 15 yr old yeshiva bochur in a top yeshiva in somewhere, but have internet at home. Besides for my own problems with watching my eyes and controlling my hotzoas zer...

By "Jack" (Clean for 1.5 years. See his 90 day time-line here) "Ain simcha b'makom sheyetzer hara sholet - there is no happiness in the place that the Yetzer Hara reigns". This is brought by the Kitzur Shulchan Aruch in the halachos of sheva brachos, as a reason for men t...

Ever been on a train riding directly parallel to another train? If your train is going 98mph and the other train is going slightly faster, at 99mph... In relation to the other train, it will seem as though your train is actually going backwards. Lesson: Never judge yourse...

When the forum was down, "Commando" continued posting his thoughts on his PC. Once it came back up he shared this with us: It's been three nights already since the GYE forum has mysteriously vanished. When will it be resurrected? How many people are feeling the loss? It's...

While the GYE forum was down this week, I was talking to my GYE friends off-site and I was telling them that I felt it was time for me to go... The repeated falls were making me believe it's hopeless... But certain events have transpired which gave me reason to believe th...

If you are feeling "alone"... and you don't notice the one that is with you in al one... ... then try to remember that the letters of alon e also spell a-loan Your soul is only yours on loan One day, you will yet have to return the loan. And if it is an interest bearing ...

I can relate to every subtle point in both Duvid Chaim's and Dov's responses. They really "get it". Since I think I do too, I'm really part of this family - whether I go to SA meetings or not. I've become aware of the slightest spark in my internal lust sensor. That aware...

"Me" posted to a newbie on the forum: As I am approaching close to 2 years on this forum, I would like to somehow save you much time. Can you do the following? 1) Admit that you are an addict to internet "P". 2) Do some soul searching, and see that somewhere in your life...

A man was walking in the mountains just enjoying the scenery when he stepped too close to the edge of the mountain and started to fall. In desperation he reached out and grabbed a limb of a gnarly old tree hanging onto the side of the cliff. Full of fear he assessed his s...

The root of our spiritual illness is "self-centeredness". Living 'outwardly-focused' has tremendous benefits to us and those around us, often beyond what we can imagine. The below article is a beautiful true story that brings out this point.   I arrived at the address and...