I was going to say that I hate being an addict.
But then I thought of something "habib" recently told me.
You know those people who walk down the street;
the people who daven 3 times a day,
wear the clothes,
walk the walk,
talk the talk,
but you just know they don't feel it?
You know who I mean.
He sits at the next desk at work,
she sits across from you at the table
just doing what everyone else is...
WE ARE NOT LIKE THAT.
WE ARE WORKING.
WE ARE TRYING.
WE KNOW WHY WE WANT TO BE GOOD!
WE HAVE A KESHER WITH HASHEM.
EACH ONE OF OUR DAYS IS FILLED WITH FEELING.
WE HAVE MEANING IN OUR LIVES.
So in a strange way,
that only Hashem could understand,
being an addict is not so bad.
In fact,
it's really wonderful.
- Letakein