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There I go Again!

Dov writes how he reacts when feeling the triggers coming back, and he might be tempted to think that he hasn't made any real progress after all these years:

Monday, 06 February 2012

When this happens to me, I say to myself, "well, what do you expect from an addict?"

Sometimes I chuckle, "well, there I go again, still chasing!". And my pride goes back where it came. And it feels a lot better.

As long as I don't act out, lusting after a higher madreiga or "accomplishment" in life - even spiritual - is something I lost my license for when I first began trying to turn my life over to Hashem. It's purely His business, now, not mine.