Tonight I celebrate 90 days of sobriety.
I've had 6 months before but this is the first time it's a sobriety with not giving in to lust.
What I've learned in the past 90 days is it's all about surrendering and allowing G-d to do the rest. I would never have believed that I could get to this point in the past.
Watching porn or masturbating were my drug and they were what kept me alive. When I had 6 months I was allowing myself to give into lust. As one who struggles with Unwanted SSA I would sit in a sauna and look at the men and say I'm only lusting I didn't loose sobriety as it wasn't porn. How foolish was I to think that!
BH I was given the gift of sobriety by starting with one day and now I've been given 90 gifts.
I pray for many more gifts for the rest of my life one day at a time.